memory sucks.

my memory sucks. i've been meaning to blog but i keep forgetting whatever i want to blog.. lol. and they were awesome stories. faillll (N)
anyways...
life's been pretty alright lately :) stress free (atm) just coz exams haven't kicked in .. again.
made a study plan..sorta sticking to it .. haha i was full on time on tues and mostly yesterday..todays just utter fail..lol. but i finished the 2 ancient essays. woo woo.
wearing layers to school now..trendy thing i made up - wear stockings and knee high socks on top..kaha. what am i going to do in winter?
mum got me a really cute blue and fluffy hot water bag cover .. which i tested out last night..rather warm. still slightly warm this morning just coz its fluffyish..:)
yesterday was fun, doing 'challenges' at lunch. i wish i manned up and did the robert pattison one by pansy.. but then again i didnt know what it was til kashmina picked it so meh. we ought to do some again! thanks diana for making it up. or whoever but im assuming its diana coz shes awesome.
for once mark didn't steal anything from my bag or any of my stuff when i went to the toilet during business studies. or at least i think he didnt.
lost 2 hairclips in 2 days..both of them were mum's..haha she's not going to be happy. (but they're cheap so .. thats okay haha)
GLEE TONIGHT
AMAZING RACE TONIGHT
LIFE IS PRETTY AWESOME JUST BASED ON THOSE 2 FACTORS.
oh yeh and the weather was extremely warm and comforting today. made me feel happy and warm. so instead of getting my desire hot noodles..got chicken pasta salad instead. it was cool , so i held it in the sun to 'warm it up' with erin sorta laughing at me, ha.
in bio today meisze and kia .. squirting water from water guns at our bio teacher .. and at each other. my main complaint was that got drips of water on my piece of bio paper note...! and kate's laughing at me coz of that. tis also fun talking about driving in class.
after school was fun, chatting with clara about awesome tv shows (Y)(Y) and life in uni haha.
jenny - still hilarious and embarrassing at recess and lunch .. haha i feel the need to stay away from her just coz..;]
and geography is still rather awesome with pris and catherine and how we all talk about .. idk .. random stuff.
i guess i miss talking to the other jess .. heh hard to talk to her at school.

lastly.. i miss you elaine!!!!! + i love my mum and dad and my bro's alright too hah.
ps i think i've mentioned everyone awesome to me in this post..yay. steven and matt are awesome too but i felt weird mentioning or writing about them in the earlier part of this post so they're just here. oh and alex in business is rather fun too. its nice sitting next to a girl now kahah :) and shes so funny.
pps diana have you noticed how easily persuaded i am to go to things i originally said no to? haha e.g. the macquarie thing at school and now .. maybe the english hamlet thing..are you going btw? haha i dont know if you'll read this before monday so yeh. and i'll forget to ask you at school.

BUMMER I ORIGINALLY JUST WANTED TO POST ABOUT WELL THINGS BUT MAINLY MY HSC EXAM TIMETABLE..HAHA EFFORT. do it later..~~~ but main thing is NO 2 EXAMS IN ONE DAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY THANKS GOD THE BEST AWESOME BEING IN MY AWESOME LIFE.

oh and im not on a high. im just excited about life ! haha good to know isn't it?

you know that feeling...

when you received an exam result that you expected so you can't complain right? but at the same time you're pretty disappointed in yourself coz you could have done a lot better.. (yeh i complained too much about my exam results .. sorry pansy!)

there's so many other people out there who aren't "satisfied" with their results...but difference is .. there's are in the 90's...mine are NOWHERE CLOSE. it's really...ugh ! and even intimidating just coz their results are so high up there.

i always go through the same routine .. study last minute..do exam...feel unsure..get results..did horribly or as i expected (low expectations though) and then decide to study hardcore but don't really..and same cycle happens all over again.

i guess i do know how much effort the hsc requires and how unfair it is that some people are so awesomely naturally smart and don't really need to put in that much time and effort, but i know i need to..but i can't find the motivation to do hours and hours per day/week.

ex-hscers always makes the hsc seem effortless.
well it isn't. at least not to me.
these exams results have provided me with the most utter disappointment i've ever experienced...so much so that even the ones i did alright in or better than i expected i'm not even satisfied because how poorly i did in some..

but as the saying goes (if there is one) don't look back onto the past but live in the present and move on and look towards the future. (i dont think there is one lol but somewhere along those lines)

I know God's got something awesome prepared for me but i need to do my best before He does the rest! :)
This year's..well yr 12 altogether's making me feel uneasy and feel as though my faith in God is lacking although He's listened and responded to my prayers the way I hoped for..strange, i should be confirmed with further faith now that I experienced more difficulties with Him right?

Life's hard ! Though I know I shouldn't complain/worry/be so down on myself..as a Christian I should act in God's way (more) !!!

ps if i sounded annoying sorry..but then again shouldn't be sorry i can rant on as much as i want, this is my blog..haha.

pps but seriously sorry Pansy you're sick of me in maths complaining..i know lol.

since holidays begun;

hmm at the same time i've done more than i expected, have also done ..well not that much :(

highlights of my holidays (so far)

sunday 28th march: first time back to church since january..and it was really good to catch up with everyone. felt quite loved to know so many b/s care for me!

tuesday 30th march: civicing, (5 dvds) parra , the blind side with diana :) great day of shopping and catching up despite the horrible rain! lol

saturday 3rd april: family friend's house..had a south park marathon and talking and eating lamb chops, delicious bbq food and amazing hazelnut dessert :D:D

tuesday 6th april: 19 minutes for $12 :D .. that pretty much was the highlight for that day .. lol

wednesday 7th april: went out with awesome friends to towers library & shopping..hands down one of the best days of holidays so farrrrrrrrrrr

thursday 8th april: macquarie with diana, pansy, pris, jewel, mark ;] macq librarying (so big) , debating / discussing over movies, date night, shopping..mark wearing heels.. lol

saturday 10th april: FINISHED HOUSE RULES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D thanks pansy :D

sunday 11th april: most productive (in terms of work) day so far. TALKED TO ELAINE ON THE PHONE :D:D:D:D

monday 12th april: funniest things i've listened to : hamish & andy's hungry hungry heroes podcast ! haha well it was live so yeh.

tuesday 13th april: bumming with erin at chats. lol bumped into clara & pansy haha :) had an excellent day catching up and discussing things and deliberating clothes.. haha.

~~~~ hmm seems like i haven't done that much haha. oh wells. still a fun holiday although not going out as much?

oh yeh also watching south park facebook addiction episode was a highlight + the one where cartmen is a "psychic" though i dont remember which days i watched those.