for the purpose of a post.

lol i really don't have anything to post here today.
hmm what's been happening lately?
been watching re-runs of good old big bang theory old school season 1 episodes, i really don't know why people say that season 1 isn't good..coz i think it is. it's just not as funny as season 2 or 3.
been in a bit of a harry potter film mood..realised i only have hp 3 and 4 :( i want 1 & 2! and sorta 5...still haven't seen half blood. disappointing :(
hmm have studied business studies in preparation of tomorrow's assessment...i dont think im ready enough..and i really have no idea why i keep thinking that its 20% when its only 15%?
and, have discovered i REALLY DO LOVE HIGHLIGHTING THINGS , especially if its school work..makes me seem/feel smart.
also found that i have used like $5+ worth of credit in the past week in terms of texting people..speaking of which ..... may be able to convince mother dearest to get me a new phone if i do overseas...shall be exciting if it works because stuff overseas are way more advanced and COOLER than in aus...and maybe shall buy lots of pirated dvds haha jks. AND CLOTHES AND SHOES AND WHATNOT. and travel lots .. though i doubt i'd be overseas for very long.
shouldn't even been getting exciting about this coz i dont even know if im really definitely going overseas. and hsc is unfortunately before all that possible happiness.
sometimes i feel as though i dont even deserve it coz it seems as though i dont even put in THAT much effort in the HSC but at the same time...i do? haha ;)
stress before assessments and thats about it . heh.
better be off , last minute panicking and studying for this business report tomorrow. woo, fun stuff. xxxxx
ps i want to see toy story 3 ! :D

somewhat breakdown.

since yr 12 has officially begun, i've probably have 2 actual and serious ones.
and probably a billion minor ones too.
seriously this hsc thing is a real life ruiner ..
its actually crushing my self-confidence quite a bit . heh.
i really dont find doing assessments that worth it anymore.
i still try and do my best but since this term my expectations have gone exceedingly low....how horrible. :S
i'm really over school.
and from what i've heard..uni is a billions times worse.
how am i going to survive in this society?

8982 wordy weekend of fun.

my long weekend comprised of :



8982 words from:

a) english essay (wooooooo)

b) 2 x geo essays

c) stuff i've done on ancient history assessment so far

and this doesnt even include msn talk! haha. i'm rather awesome ;]




hm, also went to see this rather cooooolo movie with the parentals:

THE A-TEAM :D

mum actually liked it, and dad did not. surprise there! it was 2 hrs of awesome shooting, explosions, fighting and witty humour inbetween. and partly bradley cooper's part hottiness. its only partly coz well he didn't look great in some of it so heh. and the whole "planning" concept was evident throughout the film, i really liked that idea. apparently it was some tv show back in the day .. which ran for several seasons...no wonder there were grannies watching this movie lmao. :)

world cup - im just glad parents did not wake me up when they were watching it. and my brother did not wake up at 4:30am like he promised. 4-0..ownage. and poor greeeeeen, he must be tortured now after he got the opponents team a goal.. lol :( and tbh i dont care about the world cup "that" much.

and managed to watch lots of tv shows aka the big bang theory, friends, modern family..i actually finished 12 episodes of modern family in 2 days.. again lmao. its THAT GOOD OF A SHOW! and a lot of youtubing despite the fact that we're capped..i'm surprised i can still even youtube..it's a lot faster than i expected :S:S

& spent some good quality time reading this amazing book of "daily bread" that i heard about from Connie, its basically a mini book that has a life concept, ancedote and bible verse mixed together in one and you read one everyday..and its helping me i guess..and giving me a routine in my spirituality! :) also been reading 'the last song'...totally going to finish it tonight!

through all this weather, have survived with mum's big reddish warm jacket. i felt bad though since she wears a less attractive one..haha :\ oh yeh , watched amazing race finale and glee on friday arvo too whilst eating a chicken kebab ;D ....DISAPPOINTMENT. only coz the cowboys did NOT WIN :( dont like the names 'dan' and 'jordan' anymore..!! ugh. but i love the cowboys nonethelessssssss. and gaga episode of glee was not bad. love kurt's dad and the whole bad romance, santana rocked the singing and choreography in that piece. the rest of the episode was blah blah blah (ke$ha hahah)

anyways, back to school again this week. i guess you could say that my long weekend was not bad, despite not going out much. did get 'some' work done and a lot of relaxation...and i did not study. FAIL LOL. dedicating rest of week to pure geography in preparation for friday's test. and wednesday BUSINESS STUDIES SEMINAR LECTURE THINGO EXCURSION :D how WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!! & we did not get Mark a present!? or I am not aware of?! ha, i'm going to feel so bad since i'll be near him all day lol aiya :\

hope everyones weekend was as ...somewhat eventful or somewhat exciting or fun or productive as mine ;) take care darlings x

Selfish?

Is it a bad thing when a friend talks to me to console about their problems...that I care but don't care that much..? I sometimes wonder if I'm selfish or just a bit bored with listening..but that makes me sound like such a bad friend.
At the same time, I really can't help my friend with their problem, I can't really even offer advice, it's such a difficult position they put me in and it's even harder when it's not face to face. Listening is sometimes not personal enough (in my opinion).
Once we were really close friends but over time .. we grew apart..but they just think of our friendship as good as it used to be? I'm feel crap sometimes for the way I respond to them but at the same time they've got to realise I can't do much or respond because...well I don't know how to.
Sometimes it makes me wonder if i've grown from our friendship or has it just made me worse as a person, I don't think our friendship (to me) will ever be the same, or I won't enjoy our friendship as much as I used to.
It's funny how over time..so much can change in a person, and in a person's life...I remember a whole year ago, everything was completely opposite, and to top off this problem..the HSC is around..I really wished it wasn't just based on "exams". There's more to getting into a uni course or a job than just answering questions..because you have to know how to communicate and deal with issues...sometimes ones like this.
Also wished that school had a subject in just teaching you how to be a person, or a better one..how to solve problems that are really "deep" (LOL). But then again I guess life itself is the whole answer..and God teaches you how to grow along the way.
The problems going on at home don't help either, I worry too much sometimes because I know it's all going to be fine in the end, but a it's normal for a person to worry...because you simply don't know what your future's going to be. I guess that's the surprise and experience about life, you only live in the present and never in the future. And you can only move on from the past. Though there's so many intricate parts of your life you wish you could always play on repeat, those moments are so small but such a big part of your life.
Yeh well I just sounded extremely corny and weird throughout this whole post..but it's good to "reflect" about situations happening in life.
Can't wait to be post HSC. Come Feb/March next yr, this whole worrying thing will be increased even more because uni is even worse than yr12. grr.